ok.
2dae didnt really work out well for me..
so did the past few days..
and so will the next few days..
ahhh.. what the heck ==
i had to go see the ________ coz of sth i wrote..
that is freakin retarded..
isnt it suppose to be personal..
why end up tell here tell there..
i swear,
next time im so gonna keep my mouth shut.
and my personal things shall stay personal.
lols..this is nice..
check tis out..
Our father,
Who is in heaven,
Why did you forget my name?
From what I see,
I think you hate me,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give me this day,
A little less dread,
And forgive my dark thoughts,
As I take me a few more shots.
Save me from lacerations,
And all my upheavals,
So I will not devour,
what soul I have left,
Amen.
hahs..nice rite..xD
Its my life thats been in vain
Death has been on my mind,
and its seems the best way out,
for meaning and the purpose,
Of life has come to doubt
The pain and the darkness,
is consuming my very being,
and any spec of light,
Is appearing to be fleeing
I hate the world around me,
and I hate what I've become,
a creature without feeling,
and i know that i am scum
Everyday i get closer,
from going over the edge,
ending all the pain,
and walking of a ledge
The darkness will never vanish,
for i am bound to burn,
as i am full of sin,
its a spot rightly earn
Its a spot I will soon fulfill,
for i can not bare the pain,
this world is worse than hell,
For its my life thats been in vain
ok..tis was continued from one of the prev poems i posted..
and i find it somewhat related to my life..
no, i dont cut ==
and no, i dont have a sister.
but really,
it does mean alot..
She used the knife
About a week later,
Her mom went into her room,
She saw her daughters body,
Dead on the floor.
She saw a paper laying next to her,
It said "Suicide Note",
Her mom picked it up,
And began to read:
"Sorry Mom, sorry Dad, sorry Sis,
I didn't mean to make any of you cry,
But you never cared about me,
Never said you loved me.
-Mom, all you ever said to me was,
"I hate you, I wish you would die"
Well now I'm dead mom,
Are you happy about that?
Your wish came true,
I won't be around anymore to bug you.
-Dad, you use to be there for me,
But then you stopped caring,
I always thought,
That I would be able to count on you,
But you turned your back on me,
And now look what happened.
-Sister, you never really liked me much, I know,
But I was always there for you,
But you always let me down,
When I needed to talk to you,
You told me "leave me alone".
So what other choice did I have?
No one wanted me around,
You all stopped caring about me,
And I was left alone.
I had nothing to live for,
Nothing going right in my life.
So I hope you understand,
This is what I had to do,
It was the best thing for me and you."
Suicide Note
She laid there cold and alone
with her suicide note gripped tight.
She couldn't hold on anymore
but she tried with all her might.
The crimson ran down her mouth
as the tears stained her pallid face.
She laid there weak and scared
as she faded away from this place.
He couldn't stop this destruction
couldn't stop what had occurred..
Rereading the note he grasped
Her suicide letter read these words.
" Baby, I'll always love you so
no matter what I'm about to do.
I need you to live in happiness
don't let deaths kiss reach you.
I'll remember your kisses
the way you made me smile.
I'll remember your words forever
please baby make your life worthwhile.
I'll be your guardian angel
walking with you hand in hand.
I'll be by your side forever more
I already have everything planned.
Just remember you were my everything
and baby there was nothing you could do.
Just remember I'll be beside you forever
and in that forever I'll always love you. "
He tried to keep strong for her
he tried to keep the smile on his face.
But he couldn't live in happiness
as the tears never left his face.
Now he lays there broken and torn
with his letter grasped in his hand.
He couldn't live without her gone
the path to happiness was banned.
His hair stuck on his face
from the tears that bleed.
As he once laid there gone
now he lays there dead.
By his side lays the note he wrote
to his love that lost her own race.
This is what the note had read
as the puzzle fits in its place..
" My love I couldn't fight anymore
this life I could no longer live.
I had no strength to go on baby
I had nothing more to give.
Please don't be disappointed in me
I tried my hardest to live without you.
But I finally found it to be forbidden
and in the end I know I needed you.
Without you by my side love
I felt so helpless and so alone.
Now I'm coming to be with you
cause baby I'm finally coming home."
Their graves now lay beside each other
together forever they will always be.
Death's love triangle now stands there
it rests between them now complete.
And in blood i wrote
Crimson red flows from my wrists
isnt this what you always wanted?
isnt this what you wished?
i can feel my heart ache
as you watch it bleed
how does this make you feel
knowing that its from your greed?
as you move on and i fade away
just think back
to each and everyday
that we spent together
and held one another
we had a bond that i thought
would never be broken
we said words that i never
imagine being spoken
and now here i am
lying on the bathroom floor
wrist put side to side
bleeding more and more
and with all my energy
the last thing i could do
was i took my hand, and in blood
wrote... "I love you..."
Metal meet me
Metal meet me
Make me whole
Penetrate my skin
As well as my soul
Let it glide
Caress my skin
Toy with it
Then let it in
Blood would flow
As the River Stix
Tears fall from heaven
The liquids then mix
Tears from God
Fall with my own
Makes me think
I'm not alone
Too late now
My fate is sealed
Along with the gash
That never healed
So easy to
Just a slip of a knife
Yet it's a sin
To take one's life
How can God
Be considered so great?
When He turns His back
On my very fate?
Going to Hell
My preacher would say
Guess we'll see
As here i lay
Thoughts are fuzzy
As i lie to drain
Yet happy am i now
And will always remain
ok..g2g now..
probably be bak ltr..
or not..
coz i still have tuition hmwk for tmr to do..
sighs..
srsly,
u cnt blame me for behaving this way ==
its juz the way i am
RaRa Pwned You @
11:10 AM