as promised,
here are summore..o.o
Erase My Life As You Erase My Pain
Sometimes i feel like i can erase
All the things that i learned
All the things that i lived
And i wish i had a pencil
To draw my life again
As i draw a picture
A picture of sadness
What colors are included in?
What shapes you see?
A love maybe, a heart in black
That heart won't stop to ache
Nothing in my childhood
Nothing in my past
Can erase this disappointment
Can erase this shadow black
Looking at my window
All colors faded black
Not any of my parents
Not any of my friends
Can make my life bearable
Can make white that black
A silent killer
Illuminating fears engulf the pain and tears
For a past so bleak with no future to speak
Everyday a struggle but another test of life
Yet so much misery tangled with strife
Pulls us closer to the cold steel knife.
A forever fight although it seems
The only escape is in ones dreams
Tormented daily by the silent killer
With one thing left but to sob in your pillar,
The head starts to win as thoughts kick in...
As the voice of fear rings true in the ear
Yes or no, maybe not, should I do it and finally rot,
The head plays games yet the minds forgot
Light is there and yes it can be found
But not from six feet deep buried in the ground.
Beat us it can but control us it cant
For where there's a will there's always a way
Because what's to say who can and cant stay,
Time heals all but it's a slow progression
not everyone can take it, but hey that's depression.
Stitch me up
A tear slides down this face of mine
I tell myself this will be the last time
Im still amazed that I have tears to cry
I thought I was finally empty inside
Eyes glisten in my room so dark
My tears reasons, a question mark
I dont know why I feel this way
Friendship pushed aside for another day
I try to tell myself that I deserve more
But as I try, my tears fall to the floor
Faster and faster they come crashing down
Of course, no one hears, not a sound
My broken mask, my hearts disguise
Is what these tears symbolise
Theyll fill up buckets, one by one
Yet no one notices Ive come undone
I ask myself, Am I asking a lot -
To want more than what Ive already got?
I empty the buckets and refill them again
Wondering when the mask will mend
A little stitching, a bit of TLC
Will mend my broken mask, finally
But what if its true, the one thing I dread -
That no one has a needle and thread?
The truth from within
For every smile and every cry
Every laugh and every lie
Every truth that has it's pain
Every cut that left a stain.
For all the times i was torn apart
Every time you broke my heart
All the times i almost cried
but walked away to keep my pride.
Every silent scream i made
Every time i grabbed that blade
Every night i wished you away
but prayed again so that you'd stay.
I want you to know the truth
That you have hurt me so bad
So I'm leaving you with these words
I'm sorry, sick, selfish and sad.
But tonight I'm going to be strong
and i pray my heart will heal.
These are my words
the truth from within deep
If you promise not to hurt me anymore
Then my heart you may keep.
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3:57 PM